Not someone with questionable actions in their past. a pattern of tumultuous relationships with friends, family and loved ones. I have read through a lot of your blog and so much of it sounds like me. Caring about someone with Borderline Personality Disorder (BPD) tosses you on a roller coaster ride from being loved and lauded to abandoned and bashed. I have no goals. You can find even more stories on our Home page. What is a BPD such as she expecting from me? As you note, they benefit from the mystery around BPD bc they can more easily confuse people, induce sympathy and get people to excuse their abuse etc. Doing a lot of reading keep reading things like don't get bogged down on the details, focus on her emotions, don't get defensive. I am sorry you didn't feel loved. These cookies are strictly necessary to provide you with services available through our website and to use some of its features. Today I turned 47 and I feel like I am 77. Someone needs groceries, even if I barely have enough money to feed myself? , Hi Tea You're welcome, and thank you as always for the kind feedback. What stands out for me is HOPE! Because these cookies are strictly necessary to deliver the website, refusing them will have impact how our site functions. I had struggled long and hard, it was enough. People with BPD are also more inclined to exhibit impulsive behavior or . Debbie,This was an amazing letter that you wrote!!! A certain song, sound, smell, or words can quickly fire off neurological connections that bring us back to a place where we didnt feel safe, and we might respond in the now with a similar reaction (think of military persons who fight in combat a simple backfiring of a car can send them into flashbacks. Enough said. I briefly contemplated not telling my story because of that very fact, but have decided to post it despite that fact. BPD is also sometimes known as 'emotionally unstable personality disorder', but even that label feels somewhat prejudiced to me. They said that it was more important to show me how much they love me than to go on long vacations alone. I have successfully alienated my oldest who is 12 and see how my behaviors are effecting my youngest who is 7. Debbie, Hi Andrea you are very welcome. I would love it if you shared my letter with clients and posted it on the wall in your office. I have only receintly learned of BDP when searching for answers to why my relationship was not able to progress. 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Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a long-term pattern of "abnormal behavior" that is characterized by an unstable sense of self, emotions, and relationships with other people. I asked myself, how can someone with four beautiful children and a stunning wife feel this way? ~ Dave M. Also, during those long recovery periods, she will fixate on a distorted, misremembered and misquoted version of something I'd said during the fight, always distorted to be much harsher than what I actually said, and sometimes completely "fabricated" with no basis in anything I said. Thank you for the article. I am sorry you were scared. For example, a male with BPD may engage in frequent binge drinking of. As I read it I want to share it with my husband and daughter for starters but would love to share it to my DBT therapist and group.How do you feel about that? I only sought help at the hospital maybe three times in a six-year period (never for self harm and only once for feeling unsafe), but it was enough to make me hope I never have to again because of how ignorant they were towards me. I'd be honored if you shared it with your DBT Group and therapist (and your family!). He seems to be in complete denial of my diagnosis. There is nothing you can do to fix it. I have never sought treatment (aside from counseling) for my BPD, because mostly group therapy is suggested and the last thing I want to do is talk to a bunch of strangers about my problems . I think these blogs are more educational than a generic medical article about BPD. Yes, it's good to have a job so that i'm out of the house and not laying in bed all day. If you make plans, try to keep them, or offer a clear reason why you can't. Make sure you're not blowing hot and cold. My intention was to describe the difficulty while remaining brief. It helped with a lot of other symptoms. She blames our divorce completely on me, taking no responsibility at all. She has latched onto a fiction that I was mentally abusive towards her and refuses to co-parent in the interest of our son. Research has focused on the psychopathological tendencies of children whose Needless to say, it hasn't been easy for either of us. I am going to send him this link and I hope he reads it and it helps him to understand that I'm not a monster but instead struggling with a disorder. Impulsive, risky behaviour. Initially I thought we just fell out of love and she was unable to deal with that reality (like maybe she needed a larger reason like alcoholism or abuse rather than just drifting apart). Use non-judgmental words to describe our behaviours. I loved this!!! In the past when she gets to busy she ends up in the hospital. This is just another manifestation of BPD. There are other online DBT resources starting up (I will be co-facilitating one of them!) There is no one in this area who practices DBT. I know others requested to share it and I too would love to share it with a client, or perhaps imply put it up on the wall in my office =) Are you comfortable with it?I wish you skillful means. I no longer do the things I used to do. For her . She blew up, tore into me for a good 30 minutes before breaking up with meshe breaks up every time she gets mad, then acts as though it had never happened a few hours later, or the next day). Thank you, and best wishes for the future. Its difficult, after all, to relate to others properly when you dont have a solid understanding of yourself and who you are, apart from everyone else around you. I NEVER RELAX. Required fields are marked *. One of the symptoms of Borderline Personality Disorder is an intense fear of being abandoned, and we therefore (often unconsciously) sometimes behave in extreme, frantic ways to avoid this from happening. clearly point to BPD. After reading this letter i feel that i myself wrote most of it. Thank you so much. I haven't heard from her privately for weeks since. Debbie, Hi Kat thank you so much for sharing. . Between my parents, family, and middle school, I have enough scarring that just won't heal up right. She struggles with accepting herself and most of all loving herself which in turn hinders her from being healthy both mentally and physically. I held on to you so tightly then, and I still do now because, to me, you are the answer, you are the only person in the world. I seem selfish. Click to enable/disable essential site cookies. I walked away so she wouldnt have to deal with that; because no one should have to. It's common to experience other mental health problems and experiences alongside BPD, which could include: Anxiety and panic attacks Depression Eating problems Dissociative disorders Psychosis or hearing voices Bipolar disorder Post-traumatic stress disorder (PTSD) or complex PTSD Sleep problems Deal with the label in a way that makes sense to you. It's seriously messed up. I quit writing. I find it so hard to put into words my struggles but you have done it perfectly. A common call to the SANE Helpline often goes like this: 'I think my partner, daughter or son has borderline personality disorder (BPD) and I feel like I have to walk on eggshells around them. When he is having his episodes he verbally attacks me. This letter might help on the explaining part, but the latter? , There are still some professionals who are not up to speed with the treatments that can effectively help those with BPD. I tried to cheer her up and I thought we ended the evening on amiable terms. Arlington, VA 22203, NAMI Required Disclosures For Written Solicitations. BPD is what happens when we get sucked under the waves and can't breathe. Don't think we will ever get back now, gotta give it to her though, she was the only one who understood me. I have heard about DBT, butdon't really know much about it. Debbie, Hi Anne thank you for commenting. I did drink, but it always leads me to dangerous places. Remember that your words, love, and support go a long way in helping your loved one to heal, even if the results are not immediately evident. Personal trainer. Ironically, he was a doctor, a darn good one too if I might add.Now, having three daughters, I am struggling to find a way to explain to my girls that I love them despite the way I acted, and in dillema whether it's best to live apart from them for their sake since my BPD might influence their mental growth, and miss them or stay and make matters worse. Thanks again. Thankyou, I can only imagine the courage it must have taken for you to write this for us! This is the most dreaded Dx to come across according to my colleaguesif it was so bad, why would it be my problem? Erica shares her story of being diagnosed at 18 and opening up about living with BPD. Thank you so much for your comment. My mother has informed herself about bpd, so that she can give me the support I need in a way that I can accept it. Were not saying its right. We can work through this destructive pattern and learn how to be healthier in the context of relationships. Thank you for your heartfelt comment in response to my letter. It was so helpful to me. I am so happy that you feel it was a help to you, and I appreciate all of the kind things you said. I tried to be responsible. SANE Helpline. One must only have 5 symptoms out of 9 to qualify for a diagnosis, and the combinations of those 5-9 are seemingly endless. I'm hoping it will help myself and also my husband out. UPDATE: A video version of this letter, complete with narration and text, is now available for viewing and sharing by clicking HERE. I'd probably try again if he asked me, but I know he won't. Tell us how mental illness has affected your life. He will say that he knows that I love him but he isn't sure if he loves me and that he might be the one who'll give up. . I will try and find your blog, Lots of love Kat. Last week however i still was in the dark and thought i was just depressed. , You have made so much progress!! 4301 Wilson Blvd., Suite 300 I have grown up loving my mother who struggles with BPD. It was total and it was overwhelming and it could be cruel." Cassandra Clare. My ex has BDP. Thank you for the letter and I have seen a lot of younger people diagnosed early in life.I remember feeling this suicidal attempt when I was 15..but never went for any therapy..I just lived life and had my children and worked all the time too. I buried and oppressed all my feelings and emotions inside because I was afraid of ruining the one thing I had that made me feel slightly better, our family you and the children. I STRUGGLE to focus. And it also made me aware of a lot of my behavior that i was never aware of and now i have a better understanding of some of the things i do and why. I think you are the first Norwegian to tell me about her BPD blog. They have similar symptoms, but I don't believe they can be classified the same. Boredom is often dangerous for us, as it can lead to the feelings of emptiness. But you say it is possible to recover to heal have hope and a normal life. I was petrified of losing you; the intensity of my emotions, the world and the endless possibilities absolutely petrified me. The author of this letter has since RECOVERED from Borderline Personality Disorder and no longer meets the criteria for a BPD diagnosis. I have BPD and I'm currently in grad school to get a Master's in social work. I have absolutely no desire to go since my mother, who is one of my past abusers will be there , and I would rather slit my wrists then be around her because she triggers me CONSTANTLY and seems to enjoy doing so Please help me. Debbie, what a brilliant letter! I am sorry you had to grow up too soon. You juggled everything with such grace, intelligence and humility even as your husband found it harder to keep being the man you knew. You can also change some of your preferences. I know that my new wife and family would appreciate it as well. Reading also helps me manage my own destructive thoughts and feelings. Forgot those important facts. My will. But what the BPD sees as abandonment, we see as self care (which ironically is one of the suggestions handed down in this open letter). Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a significant mental health disorder that is so disruptive it was once thought untreatable. She loves her, she wants her to be happy, but to be verbally, emotionally and even sometimes physically abused, she can't be always 'there' for her. From 1947 to 1965, the state was known as the Romanian People's Republic (Republica Popular Romn, RPR).The country was an Eastern Bloc state and a member of the Warsaw Pact with a dominant role for the . Also, I am very grateful FOR my boyfriend and your article. Thank you so much for your openess, dedication and help. please know that at the very same time that we are pushing you away with our words or behavior. It is possible that something that you said or did triggered us. BPD: Why Do We Get Triggered By TV, Movies, and Books? 7. We were married for 12 years and the relationship was defined by me reassuring her that she was good enough, while she would constantly go through massive unpredictable mood swings. I am generally very good at keeping my head, but every now and then I can behave a bit more extremely, and those are the worst incidents. I think about dying every single day. You are not the cause of our suffering. Write as much as you'd like, pour out your heart and soul and tell him how hurt you are and how much you didn't deserve such horrific treatment. If you are an adult in a relationship with another adult, either through blood or through a romantic liaison, who fits the . I have subjected myself to 2 abusive relationships, and have 2 children by both of my abusers. Over the years after I turned 18, I was treated pretty bad as well by case workers I had and ER nurses and psych nurses because I also had an eating disorder. Thank you for reading this. Thank you for the hope you have given us.and putting it in terms we can understand. My own experience with my BPD mother was one in which my father, siblings and I were often blamed for her erratic behavior and unstable feelings. Would you mind if I reposted it on my blog (beautyandtheborderline.wordpress.com)? They may feel, after two weeks of separation, the same way you would feel after six. You remember in high school those kids who went from liking rock music to pop to goth, all to fit in with a group dressing like them, styling their hair like them, using the same mannerisms? , Rainbow, I am so pleased and happy that this letter will be helpful to you. Thank you for your kind comment. I hope somewhere in her heart she truly KNOWS the love I have for her and though I may never be able to see it returned to me, I everyday press on in my efforts to support her and encourage positive change. I put my family through hell for years. We need 2 cookies to store this setting. I'm in a therapeutic community in the UK which is really helping, it's 3 days a week. You have come a long way and thank you for helping the rest of us!!! Keep up all the good work here! Very occasionally, though (It just happened three nights ago for the 4th time in our 15-month relationship), I'll lose my own head and say some terse and unfair things. Debbie you have said what we all struggle to say. I'd at least come to an understanding of what it is, how it works, what it does before she did. Thank you for all you honesty and compassion. This post is just to give you an idea of the typical suffering and thoughts those of us with BPD have. I tried telling them what I KNEW I needed treatment wise, but because it wasn't available to me, they kept telling me I just didn't WANT to get better and wouldn't take the help offered even though I actually did go through all the groups offered, which didn't help because of the other issues I struggled with which they just said was BPDit wasn't. Can you get it without having a BPD Dx on your file? For some of us, we had childhoods during which, unfortunately, we had parents or caregivers who could quickly switch from loving and normal to abusive. All other programs and services are trademarks of their respective owners. Any therapist helping a child of a borderline to recover will recommend that they protect themselves from the abuse and their abuser. Your email address will not be published. Sometimes I hate him. Also, I was a VERY positive person just a few years agoI was even called a Pollyanna! Due to security reasons we are not able to show or modify cookies from other domains. This is known as PTSD, and it happens to a lot of us, too.). Open Letter To All With BPD A.J. I have BPD but don't currently have any medical insurance to be treated. People with BPD have extreme mood swings, unstable relationships and trouble controlling their emotions. I'm on many meds. The best thing we can do during these times is remind ourselves that this too shall pass and practice DBT skills especially self-soothing things that helps us to feel a little better despite the numbness. Thank you so much for sharing.You have so many people you need to reach.If only I could help in some way. Find out how you can be a NAMI HelpLine specialist. ive been through the same, she knows she has it but cant have anyone know, she cant have people think shes not perfect and happy. This extreme, black or white thinking and experience of totally opposite desires is known as a dialectic. And I know it's because I still have so much to learn. Thank you for sharing especially during your own struggles. I wish to God it would stop. She has been diagnosed, but refuses to even acknowledge that half the time (more than half the time) and I have had to take a zero tolerance for any crap in order to protect my family. We may request cookies to be set on your device. Needing Constant Reassurance or Validation "I ask for reassurance because I worry I'm miscommunicating or misinterpreting someone. This is an example of how manipulative people with BPD can be. Hi there, I am now in my 2nd month of treatment for BPD, and ,sadly, had all nine of the symptoms. I would have missed my little princess daughter, missed my husband, missed out on my "recovery". I have beeen through 3 years of DBT therapy and figuring out who i am and how i came to have this horrible disorder. Wow is all I can say!!! My hope is that you will gain new insight into your loved ones condition and grow in compassion and understand for both your loved one AND yourself, as this is not an easy road. And a couple days ago I put my guitar away and said, Im done.. Since these providers may collect personal data like your IP address we allow you to block them here. Win a copy of my new book, Stronger Than BPD! I am sorry that my borderline personality disorder (BPD) got in the way of our family and us. It's kind of just an awesome miracle that I've come as far as I have. Not easy.When she does decide to get help, and i hope she does. No one is perfect and no one has life figured out, we are all troubled in some way. 50 reviews of McLean Hospital "You know what? Spot on insight!! ~ Dave M. This comment has been removed by the author. I told my siblings what I really thought of them a couple days before that, because they always use my past against me, and lie about me. I was left out of the loop as to her condition and was very depressed. This open letter can be extremely helpful to people who love someone diagnosed with BPD. Get hand-picked resources and highlights from our Mighty community straight to your inbox. Thank you so much for posting this. Or if you don't deserve that because there is nothing for them to "understand" because i have no real excuse for being this weak pathetic crazy annoying and hurtful person? I am so incredibly happy that you have found some hope! My mom and dad talked about my fear of abandonment and decided not to go on long vacations together anymore, because I always become unstable when they do. An Open Letter From those of us with Borderline Personality Disorder: Dear Friends, Family Members, Lovers, Ex-lovers, Coworkers, Children, and others of those of us with Borderline Personality Disorder, You may be frustrated, feeling helpless, and ready to give up. This message is what he's been trying to tell me for the last two years and I've just never understood why he would stay with me when I have my BPD episodes, but this helps me understand. Sometimes the best thing to do, if you can muster up the strength in all of your frustration and hurt, is to grab us, hug us, and tell us that you love us, care, and are not leaving. The relationship is different, the experiences are different, and the harm caused is different. Which has had a negative impact in my own life and relationships. I am sorry for blaming you. Whatever. People just don't "believe" in it and long-term mental illnesses. I could never blame them for not wanting to be around me, but this all left and leaves me with absolutely no support system. Just try.Won't work. If you want a copy email me: dutch.christine@gmail.com. A lover, a friend, a parent or sibling, and a coworker all have the privilege of having a frame of reference to place the borderline in. My hope is that you will gain new insight into your loved ones condition and grow in compassion and understand for both your loved one AND yourself, as this is not an easy road. Debbie. . Hi Debbie, I certainly appreciate your open letter. I've had some, don't get me wrong, just nothing that's helped long-termand now that I *think* bpd hits the nail on the head, it just happens to be this mysterious, new labeland of course no one can see it. But she arrived the next day with a police office to remove, most, but not all of her remaining stuff. I wish she would recognise her need to make changes with help. I know all the theory now. Thanks again. We're currently in the middle of another episode as I write this. Now I don't know what I am. Thanks for reminding me that there are people out there who can still sympathise x, I have BPD, i'm from Norway. 1. It sounds like your Mom cares to find out what's happening for you. When I was scared, I ran away and hid. Here are some ideas: Not all of the situations I described apply to all people with Borderline Personality Disorder. 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